Mai Week 16: Let's End It Off With a Bang!
Let's End It Off With a Bang!
Well, guys. Looks like we made it.
As of the time that I am writing this, there are 15 school days left of school and only 2 days left till we finally finish our Apeng exam that we have been building toward for the past year.
Are you excited?
We are going to be seniors! I am excited because I have always thought I would make a great older sister-type character to our underclassmen. But other than junior year what else is ending?
This is also our last blog post.
This is also the last year we have before we apply to colleges.
This is also the last year before most of us will be adults.
This is also the last year that we will all probably be in the same class.
I’m already feeling the nostalgia that comes with the end of the year and while I am excited, I am also a bit sad to see it all go.
Going in, I was so nervous for junior year because of all of the horror stories that I heard from other seniors and juniors and I must say that junior year was definitely an experience. It wasn’t as terrible as I expected, but it wasn’t my easiest year either.
As the end of the year approaches, a lot of my time is being spent contemplating the past and especially the future. It is so strange to think that, before we know it, we will be old and gray, looking back at the moments that we are living now.
Our memories will be different.
I might remember this year as a fun and active time while another might see it as a bunch of missed opportunities and what-ifs.
And they’ll be fuzzy too. Fuzzy to the point that we can no longer tell what is real or not. Fuzzy to the point that we began to mix our thoughts with reality and reality with our thoughts. I feel like I'm always going to be looking back at everything. There will be so many moments that we just lose so we cling and build on the ones we have. Looking around my classes, it's strange to think that the likelihood that we will stay friends with people is also so low.
But not yet.
Before then, I hope you all are excited! In between all those reminiscent moments, we will have so many opportunities to learn, have fun, spend time with friends, and enjoy all the little things in life. It's okay if we do not remember it all because what matters is that it was there and we enjoyed it. We've still got such a long way to go so let's not get caught in all the sappiness just yet. Senior year is meant to be the year to remember!
Let’s push through and make sure that it's the best year thus far! I hope you all have a wonderful time! Happy Summer!
Hey Mai! This is so sad that this will be my last blog comment for you! I truly do love reading your blogs throughout the school year. It was honestly quite lucky of us to end up in the same blog cohort again! It must be fate! I said a similar thing in Nanki's post where this year so many changes had happened, well at least for me. I felt that if I were to compare myself to my 9th and 10th grade self, I would see a huge change. It is really crazy how we are going to be Seniors next year! It felt like the year was so far in the future! As I am writing this comment, we current have around a week of school left counting finals! I am scared for what Senior year has prepared for us but I am excited for it. I mean we survived this year so what is one more year? I hope that you are wrong about this being possibly the last class that we have together. I am gonna see you in one of my classes next year! Anyways, thank you so much for the blogs that you write! They are so entertaining to read! I hope that what we have learned this year will continue to benefit us in the future even when we are not in school anymore.
ReplyDeleteMai, you really got me rethinking everything. It's crazy to think that we're about to be juniors. I took these past years for granted. It feels like yesterday I was a freshmen. I remember starting sophomore year and dreading junior year, and yet, here I am. I have transcended above the mountain and I'm still reaching towards the skies. We've all come a far way and our personal growth is crazy to think about. I was unfamiliar and didn't know a single person at the beginning of the year. Now I met some of my closest friends in this class and everybody has their own distinct personalities. I won't forget this class and our classmates due to the trauma we went through together (POAS). No matter what our final grades are, we each did amazing and it does not define our personal journeys. This is my final Blog comment and it feels bittersweet, but boy, am I glad I finally finished this era of my high school career.
ReplyDeleteHi Mai. I can relate to your thoughts about comparing the past and the future. Due to junior year ending and senior year fast approaching, I have been thinking about how I started high school and how different my expectations were. Unlike you, I was not exactly nervous for junior year. I heard the warning my dad told me about how "junior year is the hardest year" and that "this year is the most important," but reality never set in for me until recently. It was when we all started studying for our AP tests that junior year felt high risk. "If I do well, my scores can avail me to better colleges." I love how you are open to the different perspectives that are shown in this quote, "I might remember this year as a fun and active time while another might see it as a bunch of missed opportunities and what-ifs." There are so many different ways to remember this year. I love the quote, "You can use choose to be satisfied," and it reminds me to be. If I could redo this year, I would certainly choose a different path, however, I am happy with how this year unfolded. Thank you for writing Mai. I have always loved reading your blogs. Although it is melancholy to know this is the last of your blogs that I will read from you, I smile at the chance of being able to read your blog at all.
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