Nanki, Week 14 - Remembering Hurts
Memories have always been something that I found interesting because of how hard it came to me. Remembering things have never been easy for me, whether that be homework assignments, tests to study for, birthdays, or even my own childhood memories. Sometimes it is annoying to me to have to share something from my past in class or answer a prompt that deals with any memory-related topics because of how fuzzy they are to me. I want them to be clear. I want them to be vivid. I want to be able to relive them every time I think back. They should be like the flashbacks that main characters have in those movies, cinematic shots and everything. Some melancholy or pleasant instrumental in the back, and then a snapshot back into the future.
Okay, I’m doing too much haha.
Sometimes, I think that’s exactly why I can’t remember anything clearly though. I think it’s because I long so much to live in the moment. I wrote a blog early called “Be So Fr” where I talked about how much hate and stigma there is around potentially being a “pick me” but I’m going to take that risk and talk about the benefits of romanticizing your life to the point where you feel like the main character.
That’s the same opinion I have on the people who complain about bringing cameras to concerts. Now I’m not against the notion, but it’s not the end of the world if I didn’t take any photos for Instagram or get any videos that I probably won’t end up watching and will let rot in my camera roll for the next 3 decades until I lose the phone, because I know I lived in the moment and I soaked it all up. So be the main character. Make it cinematic.
Soaking in everything and making it everything cinematic and then closing your eyes as if closing the shutter of a camera and taking a mental picture of the scene right in front of you. It’s breathtaking. It’s beautiful. It’s worth remembering. But living it is so much better.
Hey Nanki! I really like your personally take on memories and how you believe that they should be something like the movies. To me, it brings more fun memories of the past instead of worries. In other blogs, they discuss of thinking of the past is mostly scary due to the amount of time that had pasted. Though it is true, it should not prevent us from thinking about them in a more positive life. From your blog, I am getting the "romanticize your life" idea since it helps us enjoy life now. I feel that because we think so much of the past, like our regrets or worries from it, we should be able to experience it now. We should take up opportunities now and try not to regret them later. We should take risks cause we never know what would happen. But that is the thrill of life. I agree with you on your views of memories and I definitely will try to live my life like a "main character" in order to be able to think more positively about them in the future. Thank you for your blog!
ReplyDeleteHi Nanki. I love your desire of living in the moment. I honestly never really thought about how important it is to immerse yourself into the experience over thinking about the past or the future. Thinking about it more, the majority of my problems are caused because I don't live in the moment. The feelings of anxiousness is caused because I am worried about the future, I am not living in the moment. Your example of taking videos "to capture the moment" actually takes us away from it. With those videos, you mention how it "rot[s]" in our camera roll, and that made me realize how I make the same mistake. I would pull out my phone thinking "I want to capture this moment" and but I never actually revisit the videos after taking it. I love how you encourage your readers by telling them to "be the main character and "make it cinematic." This has the readers feel empowered and that they are in control. The idea of being the "main character" also romanticizes life. I love that idea so much, thank you for reminding me to do that. To romanticize school, pretend that I am in one of those high school movies and play that smart character. To romanticize the slow days, pretend that this is one of those slice of life silly episodes of my life. To romanticize the mundane, singing songs like those cringy girls in TV shows. Thank you for writing, this was a good reminder.
ReplyDeleteHello Nanki! I absolutely love your perspective on living in the moment. I feel like in the age of social media, we are addicted to posting to keep everyone updated. Though it sometimes feels superficial, I like the sense of unity it brings with the idea of staying connected. Obsessing over pictures and videos to "capture the moment" has often turned into posing for the camera and getting the right angles, completely detracting from the point of enjoying the moment itself. I like how you mention concerts because I find it interesting how people take videos of entire concerts, myself included, instead of enjoying the music. Will we ever rewatch all of those videos? Probably not, but we save the memories to cherish later or to update our followers online. I agree with Galilea in that I admire your idea of romanticizing everything, because we only live once right? Why not be the main character? I love your idea of making everything "cinematic" not through cameras, but through our minds and eyes. One thing I really liked about your blog was your use of short sentences in the last paragraph to emphasize their meaning, it feels really inspiring and opened my eyes to the idea of never taking any day for granted. Thank you fore reminding me that I am the "main character" of my life. This was a really reflective blog, thank you for sharing!
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